It’s been a few weeks since I posted that I was defeated and feeling low. And in the last few weeks I found a podcast that has really been helpful to me in my journey. I also joined weight watchers online. The first week I lost 6 lbs and this past week I lost 0.8 lbs. I am taking it one day at a time and listening to the podcast like crazy. It’s called Half Size Me. It’s hosted by a woman who has lost 170 pounds and kept it off for 3 years. She is a mother of 3 small children. She interviews people who have lost significant amounts of weight and kept it off. I imagine the feeling I get when I listen to her podcast is the feeling and comfort alcoholics get when they go to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. It’s nice to hear somebody like me who struggles with weight in the way that I do. I will expound later, but for now I listen to it every spare minute I have. It keeps me going through the day and is helping me be more forgiving of myself in some ways and more structured in others.
In other news, Henry is 8 months old!!!!
He is the light of our lives and worth every minute of the wait. My husband is such a wonderful father and Henry adores him.
We are both exhausted all of the time, but we help each other by switching Henry nights every other night. Henry sleeps through the night on some nights, but not all. And, he gets up very early. ☺️
Well, I just wanted to say hey!
Ugh. I am failing at weight loss again and it’s really got me bummed.
I really thought I had it this time after a stellar January. Then I had a crappy February and now I am half way through March.
I struggle so much staying on track with a change in my schedule, life or day – and now with a kid I have to relinquish all control of what my day looks like and still learn how to manage to lose weight. I need to lose weight and be in better shape. This is not a vanity thing. This is a health and quality of life thing.
But, I am not giving up on me.
I am going to do better tomorrow.
And take it one day at a time.
Henry is 7 months old now.
I am a mom of a 7 month old.
He has two bottom teeth.
He is trying to crawl.
He has been pretty chill lately, coinciding with a few nights of sleeping 9-10 hours straight. The problem is he goes to bed super early so we are working on pushing that back the next few weeks and that combined with the end of Daylight Savings Time should put his bed time around 7 or 730 which is what I have been wanting.
He loves to laugh- for real and pretend.
He loves to make us all laugh.
He loves to make us proud.
He loves kisses- giving them and getting them.
Bath time is still the highlight of his day (as well as arriving at Grammie’s).
He still only naps in our arms- we are hoping to end that over Spring Break.
I just love him so much.
He has been such a blessing in our lives.
Well, I am ending another less than stellar week which I am sure is going to show on the scale tomorrow. But, I tracked it all. If it crossed my lips, I wrote it down.
But, I am ready to get back to it tomorrow. I would like to lose 4 pounds this week. I know that’s steep, but I think I can do it.
Ways I plan to reach this goal:
* Move around at school more, less sitting.
* Exercising at least 30 minutes Monday-Friday.
* Not eating more than 100 of my exercise calories.
* Dessert only at dinner, and less than 150 calories.
* Meal planning and preparation.
That leads me to my meal prep for this week…. I actually did it!!
I made taco soup for my lunch all week, and black bean chili for our dinners for 2-3 nights. We will eat it plain with corn bread, on nachos, and with salad one night.
I am having Chex Gluten Free Oatmeal with banana and toast for breakfast. I bought cashew milk for it and it is delicious.
And my snacks each day will be yogurt for one and a bell pepper for the other.
I also made banana bread. Yum. It will probably be my dessert all week.
Here’s to a good week! Next week at this time my mom and I will be at a Barry Manilow concert followed by a night at a hotel!!! I will probably sleep for 12 hours. Lol!
Saturday’s are going to be borrowed from my friend Elastamom. She calls it “Happy this Week,” and lists all the things that made her happy that week. I am not sure what I am going to call mine yet- but here is my list.
Seeing my niece Brooke and her baby Myla
Snow days and delays
Henry’s sleep showing signs of improvement
Pizza with pineapple, roasted red pepper and banana peppers from one of my fav local places
Staying on our budget another month
Hanging out with my mom and henry
My mom did Henry’s bedtime Friday night, and it was a nice break
Getting back to blogging
Refocusing on weight loss after a two week hiatus
Lent began with a whole school mass, which I love
I am a very nostalgic person. I save everything. (I am the opposite of Liz. She is good at purging!). Anyway- it’s hereditary. My gramma was like that and so is my dad. I still remember my gramma’s mirror on her dresser was full of funeral cards, event tickets stubs, pictures, and a little round patch that said “I love Beth” that I had given to her. Recently this was given to me by my aunt whom my gramma lived with. It is one of my most treasured possessions.
Well, if you looked at my mirror, it looks the same.
I have an entire closet full of memorabilia including, but not limited to, letters, bridesmaid dresses, pictures, cards, and so much more.
Anyway, I have been using the TimeHop App which I love because it is virtual nostalgia. It hooks up with your Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and ICloud pics to tell you what you were doing on that day for the last 5+ years.
And usually they make me smile, and I end up sharing them with somebody via text or social network.
Today I was reminded of where I was two years ago.
I was profoundly sad. I found this quote about infertility on Pinterest and it had summed up how I was feeling. The joy had been sucked out of every thing in my life.
And here I sit two years later.
And this is my view.
My prayers were answered.
We were abundantly blessed.
And I am so grateful.
And I know of so many still out there waiting for their blessing.
And I pray for them every day. Because I will never forget that feeling. That heaviness.
So, today, TimeHop didn’t make me laugh. But, it reminded me to be grateful.