Moving right along…

The time is really starting to fly by in this pregnancy. School has been busy as well as life in general, so that keeps time moving right along. Part of me wants the time to fly, but part of me is making a conscious effort to enjoy the freedoms of life before a baby. Every single nap, sleep in, or spontaneous plan is definitely being appreciated by me in a new way. I know that is not going to be possible after the bambino arrives. People really like to remind you of that, too.
I prefer when people tell me how great motherhood is, but I know people are just trying to be real.

Anyway, on Wednesday, I picked my dad up from the airport because he went on his annual trip to watch the Cleveland Indians Spring Training. He brought back the cutest souvenir. Seriously. Check them out.

Indians Onesies

I don’t know what is cuter – the onesies themselves, or the fact that my dad picked them out by himself.

Today is the first day of my Spring Break, and I have been working so much, I am super happy about the break. I am also happy that I graded all but about 30 minutes worth of stuff before I left so for the first break in years, I don’t have hours and hours of grading to complete. This is good because my mom and I are going to do some nesting, and Craig and I also have a trip to Chicago planned next week.

Here is my week 21 picture:
21 weeks

I have been feeling good. My back is problematic, nausea is sometimes around, I had heartburn this week, and I can’t sleep well – BUT – that is just part of the process, and I really can’t complain, because I’ve wanted this for so long!!!!

In other news I am missing my niece Ava like crazy. I can feel us growing apart. She doesn’t like to talk to me on face time any more and I don’t get to see her in person until June. This is the sucky part about living far apart from family, the inevitable growing apart because of geography. I am hoping we can reconnect when she is here in June, because it really makes me sad. I sent her a card in the mail. Hopefully she gets that soon.

I am pretty excited about my leisurely coffee this morning while watching my favorite channel – ID Discovery, and reading blogs, and facebook.

Have a good Friday!!!
oxoxoxo
Beth WA

Time flies when you are taking naps all of the time…

Daylight savings time started last weekend and it has been kicking my arse every since. On top of that, I had a meeting every day after school. So, I took a nap every.single.day. this week. And it was yet again another week where I didn’t start my exercising. I am so disappointed in myself. Hopefully, I start today.
Also, we have testing at school this week, so hopefully I can get less buried.

My parents went to Disney with my brother, sister in law, and my niece, Ava this past week for Ava’s spring break. They brought me back the cutest souvenir for the bambino. I have to say, it was the first moment of this pregnancy that it actually felt real, and I had this feeling come over me that this a baby inside of me that is going to be born and wear that souvenir.
Without further ado, here is that souvenir. Get ready – it is the most adorable thing ever!

Tigger Onesie Front

Now….wait for it….

check out the back….

Tigger Onesie Back

I know! Right??? So adorable.

Besides being spent due to Daylight Savings time, I have been feeling good, and pregnant. My belly is starting to really stick out, and my regular shirts are mostly all too short to wear.

Here are my week 19 and 20 pictures…

week 19

week 20

As of tomorrow I will be 21 weeks, and I can’t believe we are more than half way there!

My spring break is in a few weeks…my husband’s 40th birthday is in May, but we are going to go on a 40th birthday trip for a few days that week to celebrate. We are going to go on a Chicago brewery “tour” that he designed. He is super excited and I am glad that we get to go do this before the baby is born. He has been wanting to do this for a while.
This is a picture of my husband and my dog planning the trip.

Craig and Sam laptop

And lastly, you know what picture never gets old for me to look at???

3rd test digital

I can’t tell you the hundreds of tests I have taken over the years waiting for this one. All of you out there going through that same thing, stay hopeful. I am praying for you. Always.

Peace out, homies!
xoxoxox,
Beth WA

Time flies in the 2nd trimester…

So, every single minute of my first trimester was filled with anxiety, and nervousness and exhaustion.  So, each minute felt like so much longer.  The weeks dragged on until I reached that glorious second trimester.  That is when the chance of miscarriage is very, very small.  So, I was extremely elated to reach that milestone and to be able to share the news with everybody.  I don’t think I have ever gotten that many “likes” or comments on a post on Facebook in my life.  This baby is fulfilling so many prayers and hopes, and I feel so blessed and lucky.  And I am rooting and praying every single day, for the women that are dear to me, and women I don’t know that are still on the journey to become pregnant.  It is not an easy road.  In fact, it is the hardest road I have ever traveled.  I pray for those people every day.  

Multiple times a day.

 

So, I have been taking weekly pictures, and here are weeks 13-18.  It is something I knew I wanted to do when I got pregnant.  I just started to pop out, so the first couple pictures are just my regular belly, but near the end you can see it is getting bigger.

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And here is the bambino at the ultrasound I had this week, week 19.  We could have found out the gender, but we are waiting.  

 

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We cracked up because the baby kept raising its fist in the air like that – as if it were pissed at us for bothering him/her.

 

Also, I ordered canvases from Etsy for the nursery.  Our theme is Very Hungry Caterpillar, and I loved these canvases online.  But, I was nervous to get them and when I received them, they were even more beautiful than I imagined.  They were hand painted. 

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And here are the first pieces of clothing I bought for the baby.  I am telling you this – not finding out the gender is a real money saver for me.  I know I would be buying clothes left and right if I knew what I was having.  So, here are the cutest gender neutral clothes…from J. Crew.  They were a splurge, but I couldn’t resist.  I love both of these books so much.

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And lastly, here is a picture of my sweet baby girl – my niece Ava- who lives in Texas, at her second annual school hoe-down.

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Things have been good here, except that my mother’s mother passed away last week.  It has been a tough week for my mom, and also a lovely week as family and friends gathered to support our family.  It always makes me tear up the people who show up at wakes and burials.  It is such a thoughtful gesture, especially when it is in the middle of the work week.. . People from my work, friends from near and far, and our Springfield family and friends.  I appreciate so much the support and love I feel on a daily basis.

 

Well, nesting has begun, and today my husband and I are going through all of our clothes to donate, toss, and organize.  

 

xoxoxo,

Beth WA

Survivor’s Guilt

I have this weird feeling, now that I am pregnant.  I had it when I got married, too.  

I didn’t meet my husband until I was almost 30, and most of my friends had been married for years by then (I live in Ohio!).  Or, if they weren’t married, they were in a long term relationship.  I was the “single friend.”  And, I guess over the years, being single was a huge part of my identity.  It was who I was.  And when I finally met my husband, and married him, it took a long time to let go of that part of my identity.  There were parts of that identity that I really loved.  But, I think I even started to love the part that I got to feel sorry for myself.  

And when I wasn’t single any more, I felt like I had betrayed all the single people who were looking for a mate like I had been.  I knew I had no more “credibility” with them, because I had gone to the other side.

And now, after three and a half years of infertility, I am 14 weeks pregnant.  And I am feeling that guilt.  There are people I know who are still struggling with this issue, and I want them to know that I still ache for them, like I ached for so long.  And even 14 weeks in, having known I am pregnant for 10 weeks now, it still does not seem real, and I am still letting go of the identity I assumed as a woman suffering with infertility.  I was so sad for so long, and it is weird – even though I am pregnant – that sadness didn’t go away immediately.  Little by little I can feel it being lifted.  But, it wasn’t a sudden cure all for that “suitcase of sad” that I carried around for so long.

But, like letting go of my single self, I know I will soon be able to let go of that sadness.  It won’t happen all at once, it will happen little by little.

 

In other, much lighter news, THE WEATHER! Ugh.  More snow last night.  But, it is 25 degrees outside, so when I went out to take these pictures it actually felt warm, if that gives you any indication as to how cold it has been lately.

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The first one is my front yard, and the second one is my back yard.

 

I am actually getting cabin fever.  I hardly ever get that, because I love being at home. 

Well, have a good Sunday.  

xooo,

Beth WA

ZERO POINT ZERO

I know that you have heard how cold it is – with this Polar Vortex – but, seriously.  It is so cold. 

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I think I am finally out of the first trimester exhaustion.  I actually cooked a meal one day this week.  I looked up an enchilada recipe online, I went to the grocery store, and I cooked! And, it was delicious.  They were sweet potato/black bean/chicken enchiladas.  

Here is the recipe: http://newestobsession.com/2011/10/23/chicken-black-bean-and-sweet-potato-enchiladas/

Here is the picture of my enchiladas.  I ate them for dinner Thursday, Lunch on Friday and I can’t wait to have them for lunch again today!

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So, I don’t know I have mentioned, but my nursery theme is “The Very Hungry Caterpillar,” based on the book by Eric Carle.  I got the sheets and quilt from Pottery Barn, and I have been ordering accessories from Etsy.  Just yesterday I got two of the cutest things.  I got a trash can and outlet covers.  Look how cute!

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I am getting so excited!!! 

 

It is snowing like crazy today so I am looking forward to getting some stuff done around the house.  I hope you are all staying warm.

 

xoxox,

Beth WA

Snow Day #6

So, we are in our 6th snow day of the year, otherwise known as the first day we will have to make up at the end of the year. Some teachers are freaking out about this, but not me! I love snow days. And besides, we get out May 29th this year. That is SO early. So even if we go the whole next week, it is still early June.
But, that is my perspective. I know some people don’t look at it that way.

Yesterday was the beginning of week 13, and my first day in the second trimester. I also got results back from the first trimester Down Syndrome/Trisonomy testing, and everything came back fine. Hooray.

I had a really good face time conversation with Ava, my niece, on Sunday. She cracks me up. Check out her facial expressions. She was acting out the book she was reading to me.
Ava surprised part two

Ava surprised

Well, I better go do some laundry since I put it of the entire three day weekend. I am pretty sure our sheets could walk themselves down to the laundry room. I hate dirty sheets, but apparently I hate stripping the bed and washing them and putting them back on more! ha ha!

xoxoxo,
Beth WA