You are over George Clooney.
So, every single minute of my first trimester was filled with anxiety, and nervousness and exhaustion. So, each minute felt like so much longer. The weeks dragged on until I reached that glorious second trimester. That is when the chance of miscarriage is very, very small. So, I was extremely elated to reach that milestone and to be able to share the news with everybody. I don’t think I have ever gotten that many “likes” or comments on a post on Facebook in my life. This baby is fulfilling so many prayers and hopes, and I feel so blessed and lucky. And I am rooting and praying every single day, for the women that are dear to me, and women I don’t know that are still on the journey to become pregnant. It is not an easy road. In fact, it is the hardest road I have ever traveled. I pray for those people every day.
Multiple times a day.
So, I have been taking weekly pictures, and here are weeks 13-18. It is something I knew I wanted to do when I got pregnant. I just started to pop out, so the first couple pictures are just my regular belly, but near the end you can see it is getting bigger.
And here is the bambino at the ultrasound I had this week, week 19. We could have found out the gender, but we are waiting.
We cracked up because the baby kept raising its fist in the air like that – as if it were pissed at us for bothering him/her.
Also, I ordered canvases from Etsy for the nursery. Our theme is Very Hungry Caterpillar, and I loved these canvases online. But, I was nervous to get them and when I received them, they were even more beautiful than I imagined. They were hand painted.
And here are the first pieces of clothing I bought for the baby. I am telling you this – not finding out the gender is a real money saver for me. I know I would be buying clothes left and right if I knew what I was having. So, here are the cutest gender neutral clothes…from J. Crew. They were a splurge, but I couldn’t resist. I love both of these books so much.
And lastly, here is a picture of my sweet baby girl – my niece Ava- who lives in Texas, at her second annual school hoe-down.
Things have been good here, except that my mother’s mother passed away last week. It has been a tough week for my mom, and also a lovely week as family and friends gathered to support our family. It always makes me tear up the people who show up at wakes and burials. It is such a thoughtful gesture, especially when it is in the middle of the work week.. . People from my work, friends from near and far, and our Springfield family and friends. I appreciate so much the support and love I feel on a daily basis.
Well, nesting has begun, and today my husband and I are going through all of our clothes to donate, toss, and organize.
I have this weird feeling, now that I am pregnant. I had it when I got married, too.
I didn’t meet my husband until I was almost 30, and most of my friends had been married for years by then (I live in Ohio!). Or, if they weren’t married, they were in a long term relationship. I was the “single friend.” And, I guess over the years, being single was a huge part of my identity. It was who I was. And when I finally met my husband, and married him, it took a long time to let go of that part of my identity. There were parts of that identity that I really loved. But, I think I even started to love the part that I got to feel sorry for myself.
And when I wasn’t single any more, I felt like I had betrayed all the single people who were looking for a mate like I had been. I knew I had no more “credibility” with them, because I had gone to the other side.
And now, after three and a half years of infertility, I am 14 weeks pregnant. And I am feeling that guilt. There are people I know who are still struggling with this issue, and I want them to know that I still ache for them, like I ached for so long. And even 14 weeks in, having known I am pregnant for 10 weeks now, it still does not seem real, and I am still letting go of the identity I assumed as a woman suffering with infertility. I was so sad for so long, and it is weird – even though I am pregnant – that sadness didn’t go away immediately. Little by little I can feel it being lifted. But, it wasn’t a sudden cure all for that “suitcase of sad” that I carried around for so long.
But, like letting go of my single self, I know I will soon be able to let go of that sadness. It won’t happen all at once, it will happen little by little.
In other, much lighter news, THE WEATHER! Ugh. More snow last night. But, it is 25 degrees outside, so when I went out to take these pictures it actually felt warm, if that gives you any indication as to how cold it has been lately.
The first one is my front yard, and the second one is my back yard.
I am actually getting cabin fever. I hardly ever get that, because I love being at home.
Well, have a good Sunday.
I know that you have heard how cold it is – with this Polar Vortex – but, seriously. It is so cold.
I think I am finally out of the first trimester exhaustion. I actually cooked a meal one day this week. I looked up an enchilada recipe online, I went to the grocery store, and I cooked! And, it was delicious. They were sweet potato/black bean/chicken enchiladas.
Here is the recipe: http://newestobsession.com/2011/10/23/chicken-black-bean-and-sweet-potato-enchiladas/
Here is the picture of my enchiladas. I ate them for dinner Thursday, Lunch on Friday and I can’t wait to have them for lunch again today!
So, I don’t know I have mentioned, but my nursery theme is “The Very Hungry Caterpillar,” based on the book by Eric Carle. I got the sheets and quilt from Pottery Barn, and I have been ordering accessories from Etsy. Just yesterday I got two of the cutest things. I got a trash can and outlet covers. Look how cute!
I am getting so excited!!!
It is snowing like crazy today so I am looking forward to getting some stuff done around the house. I hope you are all staying warm.
So, we are in our 6th snow day of the year, otherwise known as the first day we will have to make up at the end of the year. Some teachers are freaking out about this, but not me! I love snow days. And besides, we get out May 29th this year. That is SO early. So even if we go the whole next week, it is still early June.
But, that is my perspective. I know some people don’t look at it that way.
Yesterday was the beginning of week 13, and my first day in the second trimester. I also got results back from the first trimester Down Syndrome/Trisonomy testing, and everything came back fine. Hooray.
Well, I better go do some laundry since I put it of the entire three day weekend. I am pretty sure our sheets could walk themselves down to the laundry room. I hate dirty sheets, but apparently I hate stripping the bed and washing them and putting them back on more! ha ha!
Well, I have hardly blogged because there has been only one thing on my mind, and it was too soon to share the news. But, now is the time!!!
Yessir, that’s my baby!!!
I am currently 12 weeks and 6 days pregnant! And on Friday we graduated from our specialist to my normal OB/GYN.
I took the test on November 17th, and after so many negative pregnancy tests over the years, I can NOT even begin to describe the joy I felt when I saw that second line. Of course, I had to take several other tests, all different brands, to see all of the second lines, and the digital test, so I could see the words I have been waiting for – PREGNANT!
I can’t lie – I have taken tests randomly throughout this pregnancy so I can have as many positive tests as negative tests I took throughout the years!
We have been excited and mostly nervous until our recent appointment graduating from the first trimester and the specialist. We are now more excited than nervous/anxious.
This has been a long, arduous journey, filled with despair and sadness, as well as hope and faith. We feel profoundly blessed to have this outcome.
Being pregnant is such a weird experience. I will expound on that later, but I have to tell you one of the best parts is that my husband has been taking such good care of me. In fact, this morning he made me this delicious breakfast….
Well, that’s all I have for today. I hope you all had a great weekend!
Happy New Year, friends and family! I can NOT believe it is the year 2014.
I also can not believe that the wind chill today is -30 and I am off school for the first day after Christmas break with a good chance of being off tomorrow, too.
That is good for a procrastinator like me, who is finishing up school work today, and laundry and perhaps taking down Christmas decorations. I have had such a LAZY break. Like, SUPER DUPER lazy.
My Christmas break consisted of many carbs, lots of naps, binge watching Homeland and Army Wives, and lots of time with my husband, friends, and parents. One major thing was missing this year, and that was my girl – my Ava!! I didn’t get to see her this Christmas and it made me feel blue.
I got a new laptop that I am writing on right now, so one of my new years’ goals is to blog at least two-three times per week. I just need to figure out where my cord for my camera is so I can have pictures in my blog. Because, who likes a blog with no pictures?? Not me.
I hope you all had a lovely Christmas, and I look forward to 2014. I have a feeling it is going to be the best year, yet.
Love you all,
It seems the older I get the more anxious I get. I worry about things that I never in a million years would have worried about in my twenties. I worry about money, I worry about my dog, I worry about my family, I worry about stuff at work. Worry, worry, worry. And when I worry, I overeat and become lethargic. So, growing anxiety, lethargy, and eating are not a good combination.
I have found that when I exercise – even if it walk for 30 minutes – I feel SO much better. The heaviness of every thing just feels a lot lighter. I’ve recently committed to do my best to walk on our treadmill for 30 minutes, five times a week. I feel like it is a good starting point, and it doesn’t seem too daunting to get on the treadmill when it is only for 30 minutes. I usually end up on it for about 45 minutes because that is how long most of the shows I watch on Netflix are.
I am so glad today is Thursday and that next week is the last week before Christmas Break. I was just talking to my fellow teachers, and we agree it is definitely time for a break. The kids are so hyped up about Christmas, it makes it difficult to keep their attention.
I hope everybody had a good week!
Friends, it is a glorious day. Well, every day is glorious in its own rite – but today is glorious for TWO reasons. First, because it is a SNOW DAY!
We had a snow day on Friday, then a 2 hour delay on Monday (yesterday), and today is a SNOW DAY. I didn’t even know it was supposed to snow that much. Those are the best kinds.
It comes at a great time, because I have so much laundry and grading to do that I have put off for weeks! Now, I just have to do it instead of reading blogs on my couch in my pajamas drinking coffee.
The SECOND and more important reason this is a glorious day is because today, my best friend, my MOFO for life, gave birth to their second baby boy!!! He is truly a miracle. They were on the infertility journey for years before they were able to have their first son, and this second son just happened without even trying. I just love that story. I love infertility stories with happy endings. They always give me hope.
Here is a picture of the perfect baby boy – Ian Alexander L.
Also, it should be noted that my husband is off today, so he made me breakfast – my favorite – a homemade Egg McMuffin. He rocks.
Well, I am off to finish watching a show, then I am going to get to work. For real. Hopefully.
Wow. Over a month since the last entry.
It’s hard for me to write a blog entry just for the sake of writing a journal entry. I have to have something to say. And, this morning, I had some things I wanted to share.
I love egg nog. Loooovvvee it.
So, every holiday season I order Egg Nog flavored coffee online. And I just have to say, if you like egg nog, you will love this. I ESPECIALLY love it mixed with a bit of frothed Italian Sweet Cream by Coffeemate. Yummmmo.
Here is a picture of the box.
Speaking of the holidays, I have to say, it is my favorite time of year. I love Christmas lights, Christmas trees, and decorations. I love seeing peoples’ houses all decorated for this joyous time of year. Here is our Christmas tree this year. I love it because it is filled with ornaments full of memories of Christmas’ past. I know some people like fancy trees with all matching ornaments, or some type of theme. But, that is not for me. I am a nostalgic person, and I like to have ornaments that are attached to a memory.
And lastly, this past Thanksgiving was one of my best ever. It was so relaxing, and so full of family bonding. I also did a 5K (Walk) the morning of Thanksgiving which was a nice way to start the day. My inlaws were on vacation, so we also only ate one Thanksgiving meal this year, and it really made me appreciate the food that much more, and I felt less like I was going to explode. However, we did miss my inlaws, so we are celebrating tomorrow!
The best part of Thanksgiving was that my brother and his family came into town for a whole week! I got to spend time with Ava, and that was awesome.
The day after Thanksgiving, my brother, Ava, and my cousin’s daughter, Maya, went to a children’s museum near our house. They are so hilarious together because they are both so expressive and life experiencers. They get into everything, and just have fun together despite their age differences.
Here is a picture of the two of them dressed like the Wright Brothers. HA HA.
I could look at this picture a million times. And I die laughing each time.
And lastly, I checked my messages on my iPad last night and there were 10 videos from Ava. I was so excited, especially when I realized what they were. It was a Christmas concert. She sang 10 Christmas carols. It was hilarious. I will share the first one, only because she doesn’t read my blog. I am sure she will kill me when she is a teenager. Ha HA.
CRAP! I don’t know how to add videos. I have to figure it out then insert it. But, for now, I have to go shower and get stuff done!
I hope you all have a glorious Friday!!!