Exercise and Anxiety

It seems the older I get the more anxious I get. I worry about things that I never in a million years would have worried about in my twenties. I worry about money, I worry about my dog, I worry about my family, I worry about stuff at work. Worry, worry, worry. And when I worry, I overeat and become lethargic. So, growing anxiety, lethargy, and eating are not a good combination.

I have found that when I exercise – even if it walk for 30 minutes – I feel SO much better. The heaviness of every thing just feels a lot lighter. I’ve recently committed to do my best to walk on our treadmill for 30 minutes, five times a week. I feel like it is a good starting point, and it doesn’t seem too daunting to get on the treadmill when it is only for 30 minutes. I usually end up on it for about 45 minutes because that is how long most of the shows I watch on Netflix are.

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I am so glad today is Thursday and that next week is the last week before Christmas Break. I was just talking to my fellow teachers, and we agree it is definitely time for a break. The kids are so hyped up about Christmas, it makes it difficult to keep their attention.

I hope everybody had a good week!
xooxxo
Beth WA

Howdy Strangers!

Wow. Over a month since the last entry.
It’s hard for me to write a blog entry just for the sake of writing a journal entry. I have to have something to say. And, this morning, I had some things I wanted to share.

I love egg nog. Loooovvvee it.
So, every holiday season I order Egg Nog flavored coffee online. And I just have to say, if you like egg nog, you will love this. I ESPECIALLY love it mixed with a bit of frothed Italian Sweet Cream by Coffeemate. Yummmmo.
Here is a picture of the box.

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Speaking of the holidays, I have to say, it is my favorite time of year. I love Christmas lights, Christmas trees, and decorations. I love seeing peoples’ houses all decorated for this joyous time of year. Here is our Christmas tree this year. I love it because it is filled with ornaments full of memories of Christmas’ past. I know some people like fancy trees with all matching ornaments, or some type of theme. But, that is not for me. I am a nostalgic person, and I like to have ornaments that are attached to a memory.

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And lastly, this past Thanksgiving was one of my best ever. It was so relaxing, and so full of family bonding. I also did a 5K (Walk) the morning of Thanksgiving which was a nice way to start the day. My inlaws were on vacation, so we also only ate one Thanksgiving meal this year, and it really made me appreciate the food that much more, and I felt less like I was going to explode. However, we did miss my inlaws, so we are celebrating tomorrow!
The best part of Thanksgiving was that my brother and his family came into town for a whole week! I got to spend time with Ava, and that was awesome.
The day after Thanksgiving, my brother, Ava, and my cousin’s daughter, Maya, went to a children’s museum near our house. They are so hilarious together because they are both so expressive and life experiencers. They get into everything, and just have fun together despite their age differences.
Here is a picture of the two of them dressed like the Wright Brothers. HA HA.

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I could look at this picture a million times. And I die laughing each time.

And lastly, I checked my messages on my iPad last night and there were 10 videos from Ava. I was so excited, especially when I realized what they were. It was a Christmas concert. She sang 10 Christmas carols. It was hilarious. I will share the first one, only because she doesn’t read my blog. I am sure she will kill me when she is a teenager. Ha HA.

CRAP! I don’t know how to add videos. I have to figure it out then insert it. But, for now, I have to go shower and get stuff done!

I hope you all have a glorious Friday!!!

xoxoxo
Beth WA

Day 2 of Feeling Good

So, it is Sunday, and it is the day we set our clock backs one hour, here in Ohio. And tomorrow, I don’t have to be any where until 10 AM. This is called looking at the bright side of tomorrow, because I have a conference for work in Cincinnati (about an hour and a half from where I live), and I was going to sleep at my bff, Liz’s house tonight and then go to the conference. Liz lives in Cincinnati close to where the conference is located. But, I have to go to my doctor tomorrow, so I am missing the sleepover and half of the conference.
So, as I said in the beginning of this paragraph, looking on the bright side – I don’t have to be any where until 10 AM tomorrow.

Today will be full of reading magazines.

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Catching up on my Feedly feed.

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Doing laundry.
Grading (so much grading!).
Working out (First time in weeks!)
Cleaning.
Paperwork.
Watch DVR. (if I put this on my to do list, it makes it seems like I accomplished something by sitting on my arse watching tv)

This morning my husband made me breakfast. He is so good at making scrambled eggs. They are so fluffy. This picture isn’t pretty, but trust me, it was delicious. They were topped with Monterey Jack cheese, freshly shredded (so much better than pre-shredded).
And the toast has Trader Joe’s Apricot Preserves. I probably should have only had one piece of toast…but I tracked it all on Fitness Pal.

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My mother, brother and I are all using the site now, so that has been cool. And my dad is using another app, Lose it. It is nice when we are all trying to lose weight because we eat together often.

Well, I am off to read feedly and watch DVR for a bit…
I hope everybody is having a great Sunday!!

xoxoox,
beth wa

Unbearable heaviness of life

Life is weird for me. I will go through a stage where everything in life feels hard – house work, school, sleeping, and just everything. The best way I can describe it is just feels like every thing is heavy.

Then, one day, I just wake up and I don’t feel it any more. Suddenly, life is more manageable sounding. I have motivation to accomplish things, and I actually feel like counting my calories and exercising. It’s weird.

Today was the day I woke up with that light feeling. Actually, it started yesterday.

Last night my niece facetimed me from Texas to share her amazing report card and an award she received.

Here are some snippets of that conversation.

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When she showed me her award, she was sure say, “Bethie, not everybody got these!” Ha ha. I was glad she was showing pride in her grades and school performance because up until recently, I don’t think she understood that she is a really good student.

Also, I didn’t quite catch the picture when she mooned me!!! I was her first mooning recipient. Her parents and I died laughing. She is so damn funny.

Well, my husband is off this weekend for the first time in 4 weekends – so we are going to hang out – do some yard work, etc.

I hope you all have a wonderful Saturday.

xoxoxo,
Beth WA

Udi’s, walking, and Pretzel buns

So, I finally found Udi’s bread that wasn’t frozen at Trader Joe’s this week. The nearest Trader Joe’s to me is about 45 minutes away. However, it is only about 5 minutes from my fertility specialist’s office. So, on the days I have appointments, and I don’t have to go back to school, I go to Trader Joe’s. I like to stock up on my dark chocolate covered almonds with turbinado sugar and sea salt. Divine.

Anyway, the Udi’s bread is … meh. It kind of tastes like stale bread. It might be better as toast, but I have been using it for my lunch sandwiches. I have delicious lunchmeat, cheese, and mustard, so the bread is just a supporting character, and is tolerable. I especially like that it is 130 calories for two pieces!!! My other bread was 110 calories PER SLICE! This makes it easier to stock up my sandwich with goodies.
So, today, my breakfast and lunch were gluten free, and I felt great. I ate light today because I was saving myself to try something not good for me….Wendy’s new Pretzel Bun Chicken Pub Sandwich.

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This new sandwich has a grilled chicken breast, cheese SAUCE, and a slice of pepper jack cheese, as well as a few pieces of spinach, tomatoes, and honey mustard. AND THE BEST PART – IT WAS ON A PRETZEL BUN!!! It was delicious. And it was worth the 650 calories, because I truly enjoyed it because I saved the calories.

Then, later on in the evening, I did my favorite activity as of late…walked with one of my bff’s – Beth FS. Walking with friends makes the time go fast, the miles even faster, and before you know it you’ve burned 430 calories, and you feel better about life! So, I am actually finishing today with almost 400 extra calories!! That means I have to go to bed before I get hungry.

One more day and then it is the weekend!! WOO HOO.
xoxoxo,
Beth WA

Gluten Free

It is Saturday morning – my favorite time of the whole week. I am catching up with my Feedly (replacement of Google Reader), drinking coffee, and watching my DVR. I am getting all caught up on Kanye West’s “feud” with Jimmy Kimmel. L’awd, that Kanye is such a tool.

Anyway. I have been tossing the idea around of going Gluten Free. As I’ve mentioned, my acupuncturist has recommended this to me several times. I was just going to go cold turkey. And I reflected for a few weeks about it, and decided that I was going to gradually go gluten free. I have decided that as I go to the grocery I am going to buy less things with gluten, and some substitutes for things with gluten.

One of the teachers I work with is gluten free and I had talked to her about this last week. I have known her since I was a kid, and she is a sweet lady. On Thursday, at a faculty meeting, she brought me two of her favorite gluten free substitutes, which was so thoughtful!
Here are the items she brought me. I can’t wait to try them.

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And here is the first thing I bought for myself while I was waiting for a prescription yesterday at Walgreens (my favorite store).

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Well, I am off to walk with one of my bff’s. She is 32 weeks pregnant, and I still have to work my arse off to keep up with her. HA HA.
Walking is just what the doctor ordered, seeing as I just filled in my fitness pal from last night’s dinner at Max and Erma’s with my bff, Liz, and I was 2000 calories over for the day!!!! OOPS!!!! I have been doing pretty well, so I am not beating myself up about it. Actually, I kind of laughed about it. I had such a lovely time chatting with Liz. I always feel so good about life when we get together and talk about things.

Have a great day!
xoxoxo,
Beth WA

Just keep walking..just keep walking…

So, my good friend, Jennifer, whom I affectionately call Schwaig (nickname from her maiden name), is 30+ weeks pregnant. She is normally a runner (and I am not), but while she is pregnant she is an avid walker. She is the type of the person who always stays in shape, so I have been reaping the benefits of this, as I am her friend who walks not runs!! There have been so many times I would not have walked had I not gotten her text. Now, Beth FS is walking with us, too. I will be happy when Schwaig has her baby, but I will miss our walks and chats/rants.
So, not only is the act of walking helping with stress but talking with friends is such a good outlet.
And not to mention, a great calorie burner. This is my readout from today’s walk…

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(We didn’t actually walk that entire time (1 hour and 20 minutes) , we stopped a few times to talk to people we know.)

Monday was pretty kind compared to most Mondays!!

Hope you have a great start to the week. I go back to the doctor tomorrow. Ugh.

xoxo,
Beth WA

Elimination Diets and September 11th

In my life, I have tried to lose weight every single day for as long as I can remember. Whether it was an effort that lasted the five minutes or maybe to lunch time, or sometimes it lasted the whole day, and in even better times, more than one day or week in a row.
My relationship with food is complicated and cyclical. (I say as I sit here with a giant serving of ice cream from Cold Stone Creamery)

I know a lot about nutrition and a lot of diets. It is the topic I have read the most about. I’ve tried to take a little from a lot that I have read and make it work for me.

But, the truth is – it is not working.

I’ve shied away from diets that eliminate groups of food, or certain foods, but I am thinking I am going to try something like that. My acupuncturist is really after me to give up gluten and dairy. She says I have a lot of heat in my body, and have auto immune issues (such as psoriasis and joint pain). And she said those two things tend to cause inflammation, and would probably help me, and may even help my fertility.
I am currently reading a book called “The Plan,” by Lyn-Genet Recitas. It was highly recommended by Tiffany at Elastamom Excerpts.
It is a way to eliminate foods that are bad for your body. Recitas’ idea is that foods that are bad for some people are not bad for others and that it is a chemical reaction. So, she feels that is why certain diets work for some people and not others. In The Plan you do a 3 day cleanse with the least reactive foods that there are, and then you go on to test foods in a 20 day challenge. I am only about half way through the book, so when I finish, I will let you know what I decide.

I had a slumber party with my girlfriends this weekend and there was a lot of talk about the Paleo diet, and that is what prompted me to read The Plan, as I have had it for a long time. I also have a book about the Paleo diet to read when I am finished.

So much to think about. But, I figure, I can try it, and that won’t hurt.

On another note…
September 11th has been a bad day for me since 1994. It is the day when of my dear friends from grade school and high school was killed in a car accident at college. It was devastating for our community, and her loss is still deeply felt by our community.

Then, in 2001, it became exponentially more devastating to not only my community, but to our whole country. I think about it often, and how lucky we are that bombings are not common place for us.
And I pray.
I pray for peace.

As my principal said at mass this morning, “Peace starts in each of you.”

xoxoxo,
Beth WA

Finding my joy.

This summer has been a journey in finding my joy again.
Infertility was winning and my spirit was being crushed.
Little by little.
Day by day.
I was losing hope by the hour.

Then, an angel reached out to me and changed the course of my journey.

My angel was Beth FS’s lovely mother. Beth FS’s mom is a kind, generous, caring woman. I’ve always known this about her. She goes out of her way to help people, and is always there to offer a reassuring word or gesture.
She reached out to me to see if I would like to try acupuncture. She had been going for a while, and had a very good friend who was an acupuncturist who had shared her successes with infertility.

Mrs. F’s acupuncturist was going to be out of town, so she referred us to another acupuncturist who she had heard great things about. Not only did Mrs. F schedule my first appointment, she came with me, and was by my side for the consultation, and waited outside the door while I was getting my treatment. When I was finished with my treatment, I asked the acupuncturist how much I owed for the appointment. And she said that Mrs. F had not only paid for that treatment, but for my first several treatments!
I bawled. Like a baby.
I am tearing up just writing about it now.

I was so overcome with gratitude in that moment.

The gratitude that I felt that day has only increased exponentially. First, I love my acupuncturist, Angie. Second, I love the way acupuncture makes me feel. That cycle was the first time in this whole infertility journey that I wasn’t lethargic and depressed during my two week wait. In fact, I have started exercising again, and I’ve been using My Fitness Pal for a few weeks, very successfully.
One day, I realized I wasn’t feeling anxious and depressed any more.
And the only thing I did differently was acupuncture.

I am so grateful to feel myself again. I feel like being social. I feel like doing stuff around the house.
And…I feel like blogging again.

Thank you, Mrs. F, for helping me find my joy.

xoxox,
Beth WA

Coffee is hot.

Hey everybody! I just made a delicious coffee smoothie. You see, it has been super hot and humid here and I love my morning coffee, but it is just too damn not. So a week or so ago I purchased this:

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And I have been really enjoying it over ice. Also, it’s the same points as my coffee because of all of the cream I put in it.
Today, I thought I would jazz it up, because, well, just because.

I put the silk vanilla latte in the blender with ice and a weight watchers chocolate protein smoothie mix and a bunch of ice. It is delicious. Deeeeelllllliiiiissshhhooouuussss.

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Things have been moving along here. I just recently started back on the WW wagon after a month of feeling sorry for myself. I am actually feeling good. I am wondering if my thyroid medicine is kicking in. It said it would take 4-6 weeks and that is where I am now.
I am starting to feel a little more social, more motivated, and less sulky.

My 20 year reunion is in a few weeks! I can’t believe it. I am so excited because so many of my close friends will be there, and two of them are staying at my house!
Hooray!

Anybody else have any big reunions coming up?

Xoxox,
Beth WA