Howdy Strangers!

Wow. Over a month since the last entry.
It’s hard for me to write a blog entry just for the sake of writing a journal entry. I have to have something to say. And, this morning, I had some things I wanted to share.

I love egg nog. Loooovvvee it.
So, every holiday season I order Egg Nog flavored coffee online. And I just have to say, if you like egg nog, you will love this. I ESPECIALLY love it mixed with a bit of frothed Italian Sweet Cream by Coffeemate. Yummmmo.
Here is a picture of the box.

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Speaking of the holidays, I have to say, it is my favorite time of year. I love Christmas lights, Christmas trees, and decorations. I love seeing peoples’ houses all decorated for this joyous time of year. Here is our Christmas tree this year. I love it because it is filled with ornaments full of memories of Christmas’ past. I know some people like fancy trees with all matching ornaments, or some type of theme. But, that is not for me. I am a nostalgic person, and I like to have ornaments that are attached to a memory.

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And lastly, this past Thanksgiving was one of my best ever. It was so relaxing, and so full of family bonding. I also did a 5K (Walk) the morning of Thanksgiving which was a nice way to start the day. My inlaws were on vacation, so we also only ate one Thanksgiving meal this year, and it really made me appreciate the food that much more, and I felt less like I was going to explode. However, we did miss my inlaws, so we are celebrating tomorrow!
The best part of Thanksgiving was that my brother and his family came into town for a whole week! I got to spend time with Ava, and that was awesome.
The day after Thanksgiving, my brother, Ava, and my cousin’s daughter, Maya, went to a children’s museum near our house. They are so hilarious together because they are both so expressive and life experiencers. They get into everything, and just have fun together despite their age differences.
Here is a picture of the two of them dressed like the Wright Brothers. HA HA.

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I could look at this picture a million times. And I die laughing each time.

And lastly, I checked my messages on my iPad last night and there were 10 videos from Ava. I was so excited, especially when I realized what they were. It was a Christmas concert. She sang 10 Christmas carols. It was hilarious. I will share the first one, only because she doesn’t read my blog. I am sure she will kill me when she is a teenager. Ha HA.

CRAP! I don’t know how to add videos. I have to figure it out then insert it. But, for now, I have to go shower and get stuff done!

I hope you all have a glorious Friday!!!

xoxoxo
Beth WA

Day 2 of Feeling Good

So, it is Sunday, and it is the day we set our clock backs one hour, here in Ohio. And tomorrow, I don’t have to be any where until 10 AM. This is called looking at the bright side of tomorrow, because I have a conference for work in Cincinnati (about an hour and a half from where I live), and I was going to sleep at my bff, Liz’s house tonight and then go to the conference. Liz lives in Cincinnati close to where the conference is located. But, I have to go to my doctor tomorrow, so I am missing the sleepover and half of the conference.
So, as I said in the beginning of this paragraph, looking on the bright side – I don’t have to be any where until 10 AM tomorrow.

Today will be full of reading magazines.

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Catching up on my Feedly feed.

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Doing laundry.
Grading (so much grading!).
Working out (First time in weeks!)
Cleaning.
Paperwork.
Watch DVR. (if I put this on my to do list, it makes it seems like I accomplished something by sitting on my arse watching tv)

This morning my husband made me breakfast. He is so good at making scrambled eggs. They are so fluffy. This picture isn’t pretty, but trust me, it was delicious. They were topped with Monterey Jack cheese, freshly shredded (so much better than pre-shredded).
And the toast has Trader Joe’s Apricot Preserves. I probably should have only had one piece of toast…but I tracked it all on Fitness Pal.

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My mother, brother and I are all using the site now, so that has been cool. And my dad is using another app, Lose it. It is nice when we are all trying to lose weight because we eat together often.

Well, I am off to read feedly and watch DVR for a bit…
I hope everybody is having a great Sunday!!

xoxoox,
beth wa

Unbearable heaviness of life

Life is weird for me. I will go through a stage where everything in life feels hard – house work, school, sleeping, and just everything. The best way I can describe it is just feels like every thing is heavy.

Then, one day, I just wake up and I don’t feel it any more. Suddenly, life is more manageable sounding. I have motivation to accomplish things, and I actually feel like counting my calories and exercising. It’s weird.

Today was the day I woke up with that light feeling. Actually, it started yesterday.

Last night my niece facetimed me from Texas to share her amazing report card and an award she received.

Here are some snippets of that conversation.

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When she showed me her award, she was sure say, “Bethie, not everybody got these!” Ha ha. I was glad she was showing pride in her grades and school performance because up until recently, I don’t think she understood that she is a really good student.

Also, I didn’t quite catch the picture when she mooned me!!! I was her first mooning recipient. Her parents and I died laughing. She is so damn funny.

Well, my husband is off this weekend for the first time in 4 weekends – so we are going to hang out – do some yard work, etc.

I hope you all have a wonderful Saturday.

xoxoxo,
Beth WA

The stars at night….

….are big and bright… (clap clap clap) deep in the heart of Texas.

I just had a whirlwind weekend surprising my girl, Ava, in Texas for her birthday. My brother and dad split the cost of a ticket for me to come see her as a surprise for her birthday. She was SOOO excited. She screamed and hugged me over and over. She just couldn’t believe I was there.

I got to go to a birthday party of a classmate’s with her, I got to go to *her* birthday party with classmates, I got to see her score her team’s first soccer goal of the season!, and got to smooch her whenever I wanted!

Here are some pictures of my darling girl from this weekend.

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It was so good to see her, but I was sad to say goodbye. And I was pooped from a busy weekend.
Luckily I had to day off because of a doctor’s appointment, but I spent most of the day on the couch recuperating.

Oh, here is one delicious food find I found at the H E B grocery store in Houston that I am sad I can not find here in Ohio.

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It was creamy, full fat greek yoghurt. And I had it for breakfast and it filled me up for several hours.

Well, I am off. I can’t wait to go to sleep for the night! I am exhausted.
xoxox,,
Beth WA

Catch up time.

Man Alive. I have missed blogging. Every day I am thinking of all of these things I want to blog. Then, the day gets away from me.
This past week was the last week of school, and to say it was busy is an understatement. You see, the last day of school was preceded by the death of my grandma. My very dear, very amazing, awesome Grandma Kerrigan. I am going to devote a post to Gramma K this week. She deserves her own post. Truly.
Updates:
School: So, I was out of school on Friday because of the funeral, and it was a 3 day weekend, and then Tuesday I was off because of a doctor’s appointment. So, I came back Wednesday and it was like I came back in the middle of a roller coaster ride, but in the middle of the down part of the biggest hill. I had to get awards, report cards, and the end of the year stuff all finished as soon as possible. But, alas, I got it done. HA HA. And now, I am in the first weekend of summer break. I have to go to school this week to finish things up and for a few meetings, but that is not stressful.

Weight Watchers: I completely jumped off the WW wagon the week I started my first cycle with the specialist. I have gained 4-5 lbs and started back on the wagon yesterday. I feel much better already. I was starting to feel like crap every single day, and the more I felt like crap, the more I fed myself crap. And the more crap I ate and felt like, I didn’t exercise at all. It’s a downward spiral for me, but what I’ve noticed now, is I am able to get back to it after only a few weeks and a few pounds, and not let it turn into a year and 20 lbs. I am hoping to undo that damage by the end of the week or the middle of next week.
I did a meal plan for the week, and went grocery shopping. I always spend way too much money at the grocery store. I need to work on that.
For real.

I am trying to cut down on my carbohydrates, as directed by my doctor and as I know I need to do. I was not cutting down on carbs the last few weeks, in fact, it was as if I was trying to set a world record for most carbs eaten. : )

Infertility: We are in the middle of our first monitored cycle with the specialist. Keep your fingers crossed. Interestingly enough, my blood tests revealed that while my thyroid is normal for regular life – for fertility it was a little lower than the doctor wanted. I am on a low dose of thyroid medicine. Also, he upped my Metformin because of my testing. These were all messages to me that I need to continue my WW journey, and eating lower carb, and healthfully. I know that most of my issues are related to my weight, and rather than just self loathe, I am working on making the necessary changes. Self Loathing does not get you any where, but eating healthy, and exercising gets you in a good place mentally and physically. Plus, clothes look much cuter and feel better. : )
So, keep your fingers crossed that this is the summer that baby Allman is created.

Life: Well, I still miss my brother and his family like crazy. They were here last week for a week, and this visit did not help matters. It just made me miss them more. I feel lucky that I got to spend a lot of time with them. It was really nice to see them. I was supposed to go to Houston for a week at the end of June, but with this whole infertility thing, I am land locked. It is really upsetting to me, but I know it will be worth it in the end. Well, the hopeful part of me knows that.
The good news is that Ava, my niece, is coming to Ohio on June 12th for SIX WEEKS!!! It’s going to be so great to be with her this summer and swim, hang out, go to the zoo, and do other fun things.
My mom is having hip replacement surgery on June 24th. It can not come soon enough. She is absolutely miserable. She can not walk without a walker, and is in constant pain that is only dulled by medication, but not eliminated. She was going to try to put the surgery off until August, but decided ASAP was better. I am so glad, because it is hard to see her so miserable.

And lastly, TODAY IS MY PARENTS’ 40th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!
FORTY.
YEARS.

We are celebrating tonight with a delicious dinner at a restaurant called Thai 9.

I have about 15 loads of laundry to do, so I am off to do that.
Have a good Sunday!!
xoxox,
Beth WA

Just gotta blog…

I have been remiss in blogging because I have sooo freakin’s much to say, that it always seems overwhelming to sit down and write it. So, I just thought, I can just start writing and see what happens.

Usually when I am not writing, it is because things are not going well, but this time, it is quite the opposite.

Weight Watchers Update:
I have lost 9 lbs total, and am still losing. I have been tracking all of my food, and better yet, I have been walking. I have been walking a lot. And, it has been so good for me. I’ve walked on the treadmill, I’ve walked with friends I don’t normally walk with, and I’ve walked outside by myself. I have loved my Active Link, and have done so well with it, they’ve raised my goal for my challenge.

(In) Fertility Update:
While I won’t ever go into details with this, I will share that we went to a specialist, and he gave us something that I was beginning to lose – he gave us hope. He said he was “extremely hopeful” that we would be successful. He said that while my miscarriage was devastating, it was the greatest sign of hope that we *could* get pregnant. So, keep your fingers crossed.
One of the things the doctor recommended was to make sure I stayed within 200-300 carbs a day, and so being mindful of my carbs sure makes my points stretch further, and that along with a dosage increase in one of my medicines has really helped avoid the afternoon slump I had been experiencing.

School Update:
School is almost over – 15.5 days left. I am so ready this year. I feel like this year was a great year, but I also feel like I learned a lot with the transition to Common Core Standards, and am anxious to try the new things I’ve learned next year.

House Update: My husband got a tractor lawnmower, so he has mowed the lawn more in the last two weeks than all of last summer.
HA HA. I jest. I jest.

Well, that’s all I’ve got for now.
I hope all is well with all y’all
xoxox
Beth WA

I’m baaaaaacccckkkkkk….

Hello, everybody!! I am back from Texas.
Well, I have been back for a while, but it has taken me so long to adjust. My sleep patterns have been terrible.
I’ve been so exhausted from not sleeping that I take a nap after school, then I can’t sleep at night, so I am exhausted, and take a nap….grrr… So, last night, I fell asleep at 8:00, and I woke up this morning at 5:22 AM BOO!

I had a really good Weight Watchers week before I went to Texas, but then I went to Texas and gained 6 lbs. But, I just weighed in this morning, and I lost the 6 lbs I gained in Texas, plus a little bit more. YAY!!
I have tried lots of new recipes this week, which I will share this week. Some have been successes, some have not been. But, it’s fun to find low point, healthy recipes that are delicious.

Well, here is my Texas recap in pictures….

This picture was taken about 5 minutes after we reunited!!

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This was a picture of her in her pink Stetson that my uncle sent her…

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She is so sassy.

I took her to the park a few times to try to get some exercise (I did walk three times for 2.5 miles while I was there, but I also ate and drank a LOT.)

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Ava and Craig colored eggs. They are so cute together, I just love their relationship.

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One of her Easter gifts was a pleather jacket that she really wanted. My mom sent it to her, and she was THRILLED. This is Ava modeling it for me.

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One of the days, I picked her up from school and we got our nails done, then went to get frozen yogurt.

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And here are some of the delicious foods my husband and I ate while we were there…

My first po’ boy.

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I LOVE hush puppies.

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This delicious lobster bisque…

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And this drink – I call it my “vacation drink.”

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It mostly tasted like a beer slushy. But, it was refreshing.

We really enjoyed our visit with my brother and his wife, and their friends, and of course, Ava. It was nice to see what their lives in Houston are like, and to see how much they like it. Of course, after seeing them, I miss them even more now! But, it’s back to face timing….

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Well, I am off to catch up on my google reader, then to walk on the treadmill.
THEN I AM GETTING MY HAIR DID!! YAYYYYYY.

xoxo,
Beth WA

ONE MORE SLEEP!!!!

One more sleep – and it is not even a real sleep as I have to get up at 4:30 AM – and I get to see my best girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am beyond excited. Especially since she does not know we are coming.
I am also excited to go on a vacation with my husband. It will be nice for us to get away. We don’t get to vacation very often, as I’ve mentioned, so it will be a treat!!

Today I have a low key morning planned, and then I have a load of laundry to do, and packing, obviously. I also want to clean out the pantry and refrigerator so that we don’t have a stinky house.

Today is the last day of my Active Link assessment. This measures my activity level and helps me increase it little by little each week by setting goals for 12 weeks. I really need this because I have become quite sedentary.
In the last few years I’ve lost 20 lbs that I’ve kept off for a while. I have been stuck at the same weight for a while, and I have a lot more to lose, and I am hoping my commitment + activelink+ weight watchers is a winning combination. I have to take it day by day. And I’ve learned that doing drastic elimination diets does not work for me, as it lends itself to binge eating for me. I mean, there are foods I definitely don’t have in the house as they are trigger foods, but eliminating a certain food or food group messes with my mind. Maybe if I did it extremely gradually, in a weaning process.

For now, I am going to stick with
*tracking my points on WW online
*eating as many fruits and vegetables as possible
*being more active than I am now

My first official weigh in is tomorrow (Though, I am a daily scale hopper). I tracked all of my points this week, but went way over. I also didn’t exercise. HA HA. But, it was my assessment week, so I am trying to ease into it, as I mentioned earlier, that helps me mentally. The positive is that I didn’t snack after dinner at all this week, and every day I’ve weighed myself has been less than the day before, so that is good.
Baby steps.

I know it will be hard on vacation, but I am hoping to be able to walk outside in Houston in the mornings since the weather is so much nicer than here in Ohio right now!

Well, off to do chores.
I will leave you with a picture of our dog, Sammy. She is going to be so sad when I take out the suitcases today. Although, she is getting the best care in the world – her gramma – who spoils her rotten!

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xoxox,
Beth WA

Spring Break ’13

Spring break has changed a lot for me over the years, although I was never one to go on a beachy Spring Break somewhere (except once – but that story is for another day.) But, when I was young it meant road trips, partying, and sleeping in. Now, it means catching up on housework, rejuvenating for the rest of the school year, and doing school work.
Well, as I’ve mentioned, this year I am going to Houston to visit my brother and sister in law and niece. I have been missing them so much. Sometimes when I am lying in bed at night, tears just stream down my face. I am not sure when I will get used to this new normal. I know that some day I will, but it’s hard to be in the process of becoming less close with people and being painfully aware of it. Luckily, thanks to my dad, I get to see them next week, and for a week at the end of June!!!

This Spring Break vacation is the first vacation Craig and I have gone on together in a really long time. I mean, we have taken two night road trips – but not a vacation. The last one we went on was for a friend of mine’s wedding. She is not married any more if that gives you any indication as to how long ago that was.
We are so excited.

Mr. WA has looked up breweries he wants to visit, and I have only smooching my niece on my mind, and nothing much past that.

Anybody else been to Houston? Any places they would recommend to eat? Or visit? We will have our days to ourselves while my brother and his wife are at work and my niece is at school.

Well, I have a snow day today (Can you believe it??) So, I am off to do more laundry and cleaning.

This time next week we will be reunited….

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Have a great day!
Beth WA

One More Week…

One more week and I get to see this sweet face in person, and smooch all over it.

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I can NOT wait.

This has been a busy few weeks, at work, at home, and just all around.

Last weekend was St. Patrick’s Day, and Saturday night I went out locally with my bff’s, and had a great time. Beth FS’s husband is very hilarious, and he was entertaining us all night.
Here is a group pic of the ladies from the night. Darn it for not getting pictures of us with our husbands. That is something I need to work on, taking more pictures of fun times!

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And here is a picture of the Jameson shots that Beth FS got us. It’s a tradition on St. Patrick’s Day in honor or her late Uncle Dan.

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On Sunday, my dad and I drove up to Cleveland (where we are from) to see his side of the family as they always celebrate St. Patrick’s day in a big way. My cousin was home from the Navy so it was nice to see him. I have lots of cousins, but here is a picture of a few of us from the celebration.

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Last night we went to my parents and I brought pizza over from the place across the street from my house that has delicious New York style pizza. We went through some old pictures (because when my dad hung his coat up in the closet, the closet broke, and the bar fell down, and it all came tumbling out….so a box pictures were discovered by me).
Here is a picture of me and my cousin, Cortney. She is my most hilarious cousin.* Truly. And she is gorgeous. She does not age, seriously.
This is us at Niagara Falls in the 70′s.

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I just thought it was the sweetest picture.

On the weight front, I have been struggling. Majorly struggling. And by struggling I mean eating like crazy and not exercising. I made the decision last week to join Weight Watchers Online, and utilize their Active Link. It is a device that you wear all the time that measures your activity, and helps you set goal to become a more active person, little by little. So, I have been preparing all week for today, the day I start WW, and I have to say I woke up this morning relieved. Relieved that I am finally doing something.
It’s a vicious cycle. Infertility depresses me. I eat. I gain weight. It increases infertility. So, I need to change my coping mechanism. And that is what I am working on. I will keep you posted.

Here is what the Active Link looks like…

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You can wear it clipped in the waist band of your underwear or bra, or in your pocket. You don’t even feel it. I am currently in the 7 day period where it gets a baseline of your activity. I am in day two. I am anxious to get it started when it is over. It will be just in time for my trip to Houston where I am hoping I get to take walks outside in the warmer weather.

Well, I am going to try to clean up my google reader, and do paperwork, then cleaning, laundry, and some work for my online class that I can NOT wait until it is over.
Have a great Saturday.

Beth WA

*Tied with you, Bridget. ; )