Day 2 of Feeling Good

So, it is Sunday, and it is the day we set our clock backs one hour, here in Ohio. And tomorrow, I don’t have to be any where until 10 AM. This is called looking at the bright side of tomorrow, because I have a conference for work in Cincinnati (about an hour and a half from where I live), and I was going to sleep at my bff, Liz’s house tonight and then go to the conference. Liz lives in Cincinnati close to where the conference is located. But, I have to go to my doctor tomorrow, so I am missing the sleepover and half of the conference.
So, as I said in the beginning of this paragraph, looking on the bright side – I don’t have to be any where until 10 AM tomorrow.

Today will be full of reading magazines.

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Catching up on my Feedly feed.

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Doing laundry.
Grading (so much grading!).
Working out (First time in weeks!)
Cleaning.
Paperwork.
Watch DVR. (if I put this on my to do list, it makes it seems like I accomplished something by sitting on my arse watching tv)

This morning my husband made me breakfast. He is so good at making scrambled eggs. They are so fluffy. This picture isn’t pretty, but trust me, it was delicious. They were topped with Monterey Jack cheese, freshly shredded (so much better than pre-shredded).
And the toast has Trader Joe’s Apricot Preserves. I probably should have only had one piece of toast…but I tracked it all on Fitness Pal.

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My mother, brother and I are all using the site now, so that has been cool. And my dad is using another app, Lose it. It is nice when we are all trying to lose weight because we eat together often.

Well, I am off to read feedly and watch DVR for a bit…
I hope everybody is having a great Sunday!!

xoxoox,
beth wa

Gluten Free

It is Saturday morning – my favorite time of the whole week. I am catching up with my Feedly (replacement of Google Reader), drinking coffee, and watching my DVR. I am getting all caught up on Kanye West’s “feud” with Jimmy Kimmel. L’awd, that Kanye is such a tool.

Anyway. I have been tossing the idea around of going Gluten Free. As I’ve mentioned, my acupuncturist has recommended this to me several times. I was just going to go cold turkey. And I reflected for a few weeks about it, and decided that I was going to gradually go gluten free. I have decided that as I go to the grocery I am going to buy less things with gluten, and some substitutes for things with gluten.

One of the teachers I work with is gluten free and I had talked to her about this last week. I have known her since I was a kid, and she is a sweet lady. On Thursday, at a faculty meeting, she brought me two of her favorite gluten free substitutes, which was so thoughtful!
Here are the items she brought me. I can’t wait to try them.

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And here is the first thing I bought for myself while I was waiting for a prescription yesterday at Walgreens (my favorite store).

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Well, I am off to walk with one of my bff’s. She is 32 weeks pregnant, and I still have to work my arse off to keep up with her. HA HA.
Walking is just what the doctor ordered, seeing as I just filled in my fitness pal from last night’s dinner at Max and Erma’s with my bff, Liz, and I was 2000 calories over for the day!!!! OOPS!!!! I have been doing pretty well, so I am not beating myself up about it. Actually, I kind of laughed about it. I had such a lovely time chatting with Liz. I always feel so good about life when we get together and talk about things.

Have a great day!
xoxoxo,
Beth WA

Operator Error

So, hello. It is Wednesday. Let’s congratulate ourselves on getting over half through the week.

I have a story about our dishwasher. We bought it in 2011, and because my dad always buys extended warranties, we always buy extended warranties.
So, last night when there was a malfunction (the little door that holds the soap inside will not flip open during the cycle. So, the stuff isn’t getting soap on it.)
I thought to myself, I am actually going to call Lowe’s and get this fixed. (If you knew me, you would know that I am really bad at that sort of thing.) When I got home from school, I spent about 40 minutes on the phone with Lowe’s. They were really nice, and the time was mostly due to some confusion because our account is hooked to my husband’s parents. I set up the service appointment for Friday, thinking that two days without a dishwasher wouldn’t be too bad.
So, that’s when the very kind man that I was working with said,

Lowe’s Guy: “Just a few trouble shooting questions before we hang up…First, is the water definitely running in the dishwasher, and is the cycle going? “

Me: “Oh yes, definitely.’

Lowe’s Guy: “And, of course there isn’t anything in it’s way?”

Me: “ummm….oh, crap.”
(checks dishwasher, sees pan in way, blushes because I am so embarrassed even though I am on the phone)

So, yeah. The dishwasher wasn’t broken.

There was a pan in the way.

In other news, I am eating this banana bread recipe for breakfast every single day, and it is delicious. Except, I substituted the banana with half banana and half pumpkin, and instead of walnuts I used pecans, and instead of cinnamon I used pumpkin pie spice. I also added chia seeds and flax seed. It is amazing. Here is a picture of my breakfast. I know, I use too much butter. But, it is SOOO good.

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I’ve also been walking regularly with Beth FS and my friend Schwaig. It feels good to burn extra calories, and also socialize with friends.

Enjoy your evenings!!!
Sorry this is a boring post.

xoxo,
Beth WA

Just keep walking..just keep walking…

So, my good friend, Jennifer, whom I affectionately call Schwaig (nickname from her maiden name), is 30+ weeks pregnant. She is normally a runner (and I am not), but while she is pregnant she is an avid walker. She is the type of the person who always stays in shape, so I have been reaping the benefits of this, as I am her friend who walks not runs!! There have been so many times I would not have walked had I not gotten her text. Now, Beth FS is walking with us, too. I will be happy when Schwaig has her baby, but I will miss our walks and chats/rants.
So, not only is the act of walking helping with stress but talking with friends is such a good outlet.
And not to mention, a great calorie burner. This is my readout from today’s walk…

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(We didn’t actually walk that entire time (1 hour and 20 minutes) , we stopped a few times to talk to people we know.)

Monday was pretty kind compared to most Mondays!!

Hope you have a great start to the week. I go back to the doctor tomorrow. Ugh.

xoxo,
Beth WA

Elimination Diets and September 11th

In my life, I have tried to lose weight every single day for as long as I can remember. Whether it was an effort that lasted the five minutes or maybe to lunch time, or sometimes it lasted the whole day, and in even better times, more than one day or week in a row.
My relationship with food is complicated and cyclical. (I say as I sit here with a giant serving of ice cream from Cold Stone Creamery)

I know a lot about nutrition and a lot of diets. It is the topic I have read the most about. I’ve tried to take a little from a lot that I have read and make it work for me.

But, the truth is – it is not working.

I’ve shied away from diets that eliminate groups of food, or certain foods, but I am thinking I am going to try something like that. My acupuncturist is really after me to give up gluten and dairy. She says I have a lot of heat in my body, and have auto immune issues (such as psoriasis and joint pain). And she said those two things tend to cause inflammation, and would probably help me, and may even help my fertility.
I am currently reading a book called “The Plan,” by Lyn-Genet Recitas. It was highly recommended by Tiffany at Elastamom Excerpts.
It is a way to eliminate foods that are bad for your body. Recitas’ idea is that foods that are bad for some people are not bad for others and that it is a chemical reaction. So, she feels that is why certain diets work for some people and not others. In The Plan you do a 3 day cleanse with the least reactive foods that there are, and then you go on to test foods in a 20 day challenge. I am only about half way through the book, so when I finish, I will let you know what I decide.

I had a slumber party with my girlfriends this weekend and there was a lot of talk about the Paleo diet, and that is what prompted me to read The Plan, as I have had it for a long time. I also have a book about the Paleo diet to read when I am finished.

So much to think about. But, I figure, I can try it, and that won’t hurt.

On another note…
September 11th has been a bad day for me since 1994. It is the day when of my dear friends from grade school and high school was killed in a car accident at college. It was devastating for our community, and her loss is still deeply felt by our community.

Then, in 2001, it became exponentially more devastating to not only my community, but to our whole country. I think about it often, and how lucky we are that bombings are not common place for us.
And I pray.
I pray for peace.

As my principal said at mass this morning, “Peace starts in each of you.”

xoxoxo,
Beth WA

Peanut Butter Pop Tarts and Bean and Sausage Yum.

So, my mom mentioned peanut butter pop tarts to me the other day, and they just didn’t sound good. To me, a true pop tart is the fruit filling ones, and my favorite is iced cherry. Well, because my mom and I have similar taste in foods, I decided to give them a go when I saw them on sale at the store.

Oh. em. gee.
Essentially, it tastes like eating a peanut butter cookie. And I wouldn’t quite consider it a pop tart, but they are DELICIOUS, and on the list of things I can NOT have in my house because I would eat them continuously until they were gone.
Luckily, (depending on how you look at it), I have burned 3 out of the 6 packs that came in the package.
Now they are gone.

Tonight I am having an old fashioned slumber party with my girlfriends. There are about 7 of us, I think. And we are gathering this afternoon in our comfy clothes, and every body is bringing snacks and/or drinks and we are going to graze and giggle and gossip and have cocktails.
I am taking the day off of Fitness Pal, ha ha!

I can NOT wait for the festivities to begin….
I have a zillion chores to do before, but it will be fine.

For dinner I am making spaghetti and this delicious bean and sausage thing that my Aunt Chris made this weekend at my parents’ boat naming party. I could not stop eating it because it was so delicious. I am going to share the recipe. I am not sure where it is from, so if I am stealing a copyrighted recipe, I apologize. It came to me in a barely readible Xerox copy of a cursive written recipe. I will share it after I make it so I can take pictures.

Have a good Saturday,
Beth

Finding my joy.

This summer has been a journey in finding my joy again.
Infertility was winning and my spirit was being crushed.
Little by little.
Day by day.
I was losing hope by the hour.

Then, an angel reached out to me and changed the course of my journey.

My angel was Beth FS’s lovely mother. Beth FS’s mom is a kind, generous, caring woman. I’ve always known this about her. She goes out of her way to help people, and is always there to offer a reassuring word or gesture.
She reached out to me to see if I would like to try acupuncture. She had been going for a while, and had a very good friend who was an acupuncturist who had shared her successes with infertility.

Mrs. F’s acupuncturist was going to be out of town, so she referred us to another acupuncturist who she had heard great things about. Not only did Mrs. F schedule my first appointment, she came with me, and was by my side for the consultation, and waited outside the door while I was getting my treatment. When I was finished with my treatment, I asked the acupuncturist how much I owed for the appointment. And she said that Mrs. F had not only paid for that treatment, but for my first several treatments!
I bawled. Like a baby.
I am tearing up just writing about it now.

I was so overcome with gratitude in that moment.

The gratitude that I felt that day has only increased exponentially. First, I love my acupuncturist, Angie. Second, I love the way acupuncture makes me feel. That cycle was the first time in this whole infertility journey that I wasn’t lethargic and depressed during my two week wait. In fact, I have started exercising again, and I’ve been using My Fitness Pal for a few weeks, very successfully.
One day, I realized I wasn’t feeling anxious and depressed any more.
And the only thing I did differently was acupuncture.

I am so grateful to feel myself again. I feel like being social. I feel like doing stuff around the house.
And…I feel like blogging again.

Thank you, Mrs. F, for helping me find my joy.

xoxox,
Beth WA

Catch up time.

Man Alive. I have missed blogging. Every day I am thinking of all of these things I want to blog. Then, the day gets away from me.
This past week was the last week of school, and to say it was busy is an understatement. You see, the last day of school was preceded by the death of my grandma. My very dear, very amazing, awesome Grandma Kerrigan. I am going to devote a post to Gramma K this week. She deserves her own post. Truly.
Updates:
School: So, I was out of school on Friday because of the funeral, and it was a 3 day weekend, and then Tuesday I was off because of a doctor’s appointment. So, I came back Wednesday and it was like I came back in the middle of a roller coaster ride, but in the middle of the down part of the biggest hill. I had to get awards, report cards, and the end of the year stuff all finished as soon as possible. But, alas, I got it done. HA HA. And now, I am in the first weekend of summer break. I have to go to school this week to finish things up and for a few meetings, but that is not stressful.

Weight Watchers: I completely jumped off the WW wagon the week I started my first cycle with the specialist. I have gained 4-5 lbs and started back on the wagon yesterday. I feel much better already. I was starting to feel like crap every single day, and the more I felt like crap, the more I fed myself crap. And the more crap I ate and felt like, I didn’t exercise at all. It’s a downward spiral for me, but what I’ve noticed now, is I am able to get back to it after only a few weeks and a few pounds, and not let it turn into a year and 20 lbs. I am hoping to undo that damage by the end of the week or the middle of next week.
I did a meal plan for the week, and went grocery shopping. I always spend way too much money at the grocery store. I need to work on that.
For real.

I am trying to cut down on my carbohydrates, as directed by my doctor and as I know I need to do. I was not cutting down on carbs the last few weeks, in fact, it was as if I was trying to set a world record for most carbs eaten. : )

Infertility: We are in the middle of our first monitored cycle with the specialist. Keep your fingers crossed. Interestingly enough, my blood tests revealed that while my thyroid is normal for regular life – for fertility it was a little lower than the doctor wanted. I am on a low dose of thyroid medicine. Also, he upped my Metformin because of my testing. These were all messages to me that I need to continue my WW journey, and eating lower carb, and healthfully. I know that most of my issues are related to my weight, and rather than just self loathe, I am working on making the necessary changes. Self Loathing does not get you any where, but eating healthy, and exercising gets you in a good place mentally and physically. Plus, clothes look much cuter and feel better. : )
So, keep your fingers crossed that this is the summer that baby Allman is created.

Life: Well, I still miss my brother and his family like crazy. They were here last week for a week, and this visit did not help matters. It just made me miss them more. I feel lucky that I got to spend a lot of time with them. It was really nice to see them. I was supposed to go to Houston for a week at the end of June, but with this whole infertility thing, I am land locked. It is really upsetting to me, but I know it will be worth it in the end. Well, the hopeful part of me knows that.
The good news is that Ava, my niece, is coming to Ohio on June 12th for SIX WEEKS!!! It’s going to be so great to be with her this summer and swim, hang out, go to the zoo, and do other fun things.
My mom is having hip replacement surgery on June 24th. It can not come soon enough. She is absolutely miserable. She can not walk without a walker, and is in constant pain that is only dulled by medication, but not eliminated. She was going to try to put the surgery off until August, but decided ASAP was better. I am so glad, because it is hard to see her so miserable.

And lastly, TODAY IS MY PARENTS’ 40th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!
FORTY.
YEARS.

We are celebrating tonight with a delicious dinner at a restaurant called Thai 9.

I have about 15 loads of laundry to do, so I am off to do that.
Have a good Sunday!!
xoxox,
Beth WA

Just do it.

Just do it.

That is what I have been telling myself lately when it comes to walking on the treadmill. Eventually, I would like to add in other exercises, but I am going to continue walking until I get my first 30 pounds off, then add in other workouts, like videos.
Anyway, after school yesterday, I knew I needed to walk for at least 45 minutes. I needed the activity points to end the week in the positives. Last week I was negative 4 and I stayed the same on the scale. Well, I walked for 66 minutes, and got all my activity points, and ended the week with points to spare!! WOO HOO!! So, even after a day heavy in the points on Friday, my Saturday weigh in bared good news -

**I LOST TWO POUNDS THIS WEEK!!!****

And, I’ve been taking my blood pressure lately, because I notice a correlation between when I am exercising and eating right and my blood pressure going down. Anyway, my bp was 110 over 62!! That is good people!! Very good. My goal has always been to go off my blood pressure medicine and this has given me the hope I needed that this might be possible some day.

This weight loss this week is with a barbecue at my friends house last Saturday, where I indulged in desserts, and a first communion party on Sunday, where I exercised more constraint (because I was eating leftover desserts from said party on Saturday…ha ha ha) But, I tracked everything, and kept working out. I’ve been using all my points, even my activity points, and have still been losing. I always have the intention of not using my activity points, but then, I do. I guess it is ok until I quit using.

Here is a picture from the barbecue at my bff’s house. This is her daughter, Megan, and me. Her daughter was having the best time with the neighborhood kids, so we were cracking up at how dirty she is – because my friend, Liz, is the cleanest person I know.

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Some random pictures from my phone over the last few weeks.

Here is the lilac tree in our back yard – it smells SOOO good and is so beautiful.

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Here is a picture of a supplement that I have to take to help me get pregnant. My husband and I repeatedly joke about the name of it. Now, you can, too.

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And lastly, I will leave you with a picture of my dad in his stylin’ new shades.
We loved them because they were so out of character. (They are actually just try-outs from the optometrist.)

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Well, I am going to walk with a dear friend. I was so happy she texted me last night to walk this morning so I can get it out of the way, and actually “just do it” instead of torturing myself all day. HA HA..
Updated to say: I walked 5.1 miles with my friend!!! 100% of activity by 10:30 am. I will take it!
Peace out…xxoxoxoxo
Beth WA

One More Week…

One more week and I get to see this sweet face in person, and smooch all over it.

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I can NOT wait.

This has been a busy few weeks, at work, at home, and just all around.

Last weekend was St. Patrick’s Day, and Saturday night I went out locally with my bff’s, and had a great time. Beth FS’s husband is very hilarious, and he was entertaining us all night.
Here is a group pic of the ladies from the night. Darn it for not getting pictures of us with our husbands. That is something I need to work on, taking more pictures of fun times!

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And here is a picture of the Jameson shots that Beth FS got us. It’s a tradition on St. Patrick’s Day in honor or her late Uncle Dan.

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On Sunday, my dad and I drove up to Cleveland (where we are from) to see his side of the family as they always celebrate St. Patrick’s day in a big way. My cousin was home from the Navy so it was nice to see him. I have lots of cousins, but here is a picture of a few of us from the celebration.

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Last night we went to my parents and I brought pizza over from the place across the street from my house that has delicious New York style pizza. We went through some old pictures (because when my dad hung his coat up in the closet, the closet broke, and the bar fell down, and it all came tumbling out….so a box pictures were discovered by me).
Here is a picture of me and my cousin, Cortney. She is my most hilarious cousin.* Truly. And she is gorgeous. She does not age, seriously.
This is us at Niagara Falls in the 70’s.

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I just thought it was the sweetest picture.

On the weight front, I have been struggling. Majorly struggling. And by struggling I mean eating like crazy and not exercising. I made the decision last week to join Weight Watchers Online, and utilize their Active Link. It is a device that you wear all the time that measures your activity, and helps you set goal to become a more active person, little by little. So, I have been preparing all week for today, the day I start WW, and I have to say I woke up this morning relieved. Relieved that I am finally doing something.
It’s a vicious cycle. Infertility depresses me. I eat. I gain weight. It increases infertility. So, I need to change my coping mechanism. And that is what I am working on. I will keep you posted.

Here is what the Active Link looks like…

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You can wear it clipped in the waist band of your underwear or bra, or in your pocket. You don’t even feel it. I am currently in the 7 day period where it gets a baseline of your activity. I am in day two. I am anxious to get it started when it is over. It will be just in time for my trip to Houston where I am hoping I get to take walks outside in the warmer weather.

Well, I am going to try to clean up my google reader, and do paperwork, then cleaning, laundry, and some work for my online class that I can NOT wait until it is over.
Have a great Saturday.

Beth WA

*Tied with you, Bridget. ; )