I’ve always gotten my hair done. I’ve gone to the same person for almost 20 years. It’s a form of self care I’ve never stopped. However, I’m not good at anything else that involves taking care of myself.
Until recently. I, obviously, had surgery. And that is a huge exercise in self care. I’ve meal planned and tracked every single thing I’ve eaten since February 12th.
Recently I started getting my nails done. I just went for my first fill. I get acrylics from a lady in town that works at a salon. I made my next three appointments tonight. It’s so nice to look down at my nails and smile.
I also invested in some Beauty Counter items to help me keep my skin moisturized, and in better shape than it has been. I also bought their basic make up- fab in five set.
And Monday I am starting back to working out, come hell or high water!! I’m planning on getting up at 7, doing my workout, then getting ready and going to work.
It’s been long enough. It’s time.
Hope you are all doing well. I’m off to bed. I haven’t slept well at all this week due to my 4 year old not sleeping well. He’s lucky he is so cute!! He lost two teeth this week.
Have a great rest of the week!
One year ago today I went to my surgeon’s office for my first appointment in this journey. I was going to California the next day on a trip and I had to purchase a seat belt extender. I was at a real low point in mental health, and a high point on the scale.
I took these pictures that day.
It’s hard to look at these pictures. I had gotten so big, it’s hard to believe I took up that much space. I was so uncomfortable in my own skin. I wasn’t living my best life. I was getting larger in size and trying to disappear at the same time.
Today I took these same pictures, and this is what they look like.
It’s nice to see a tangible difference in pictures. It’s also nice to know that there are many changes in my life that have brought about good things. More to share later on that… for now I am about to have a popsicle.
We have a busy Mother’s Day weekend. It started yesterday at Henry’s Pre-school. They have a Mother’s Day party. Being a mother is something I try to never take for granted. I fought hard to become a mom, and while it was painful, emotional and something I wouldn’t wish on anybody, I believe it has made me so grateful for all of the moments. I had to keep my emotions in check as I drove to his school, feeling so blessed that I am his mom. The kids sang songs to us moms, then they served us a cookie and punch. They also have us presents.
After, we took this picture with one of my besties, and her son, who is Henry’s bestie.
My friend is thin and in shape and when I saw this picture I didn’t hate it. That never happens. For the first time in a long time I didn’t look twice the size of the friend I was standing next to. I promise I am not being self deprecating or self hating. I am just being honest.
I love this picture. And I love the friendships between her and me, and between our sons.
Tonight one of my other besties, Beth (the other Beth of thetwobeths) and our moms are going to see P!nk and we are so excited!! She puts on a great concert and it will be a fun night with our Mom’s for Mother’s Day weekend.
Tomorrow we will go to my Mother In Law’s house and then home to chill.
My May is pretty crazy until about the 21st. Then it starts to be a little less crazy. That’s the day of 8th grade graduation.
I hope you all have a good Mother’s Day weekend. I know it’s not always an easy day for everyone. My heart is with those of you who have a difficult day.
One of my good friends from high school posted a picture of a mini reunion get together we had at a bar over Thanksgiving Break. And it caught me off guard. I look unrecognizable to myself. I immediately wanted to hate on myself and the picture.
But, then I took myself to a place of gratitude.
I am not in that place any more. And right now I am using my new tool in the best way I know how. I’m eating protein rich, nutrient dense foods. I’m eating meals and snacks and not grazing. I’m logging every single thing I eat. I’m getting about 10,000 steps a day, sometimes a little less. I gave up hot coffee and my beloved chemical coffee cream for at least 5-6 days a week.
There are a few things I could be doing better but I’m working on it.
I can tell you it was great to go to a concert tonight and just be in my seat and not spill over to the person next to me. It was great just to get up with ease and dance to the music, not worried about my clothes being too tight and how I looked from the back.
I know this rapid weight loss won’t be forever but I am enjoying the journey and taking in the lessons and creating new healthy habits to replace my old self sabotaging ones.
Crazy to me the difference. I feel sad looking at that first picture.
I hope you are all having a good week!
I have never in my life lost more than 30-35 pounds. This is so exciting. I have been the same weight for about 15 days and today the scale finally moved.
I don’t have many pictures. I need to take more pictures!! But here is one from lunch with my friends last week.
I’m still trying to start a morning exercise routine. I started reading a book called “Rewired” in an effort to learn how to be more disciplined. The good news is, brain science says I can do this. The bad news is brain science says in order to do it, I just need to do it. 🤪
Over and over again.
Then a new connection will be made.
It’s the last weekend of my Spring Break and then starts the roller coaster of the end of the school year. My May is so crazy it gives me anxiety to think about. But I just have to take it one day at a time.
I hope all is well with you!
Update: pictures from today
So, yesterday my mom called me while I was at a retirement party at school to tell me Henry had a 102 fever and she was going to give him a Tylenol. I was a little alarmed because Henry hasn’t ever had a really high fever.
Then my mom called me an hour later, after the Tylenol, his temperature was now 103. So, I called the doctor’s office and went to my mom’s to find him like this.
He was so lethargic and sad looking. They got him in at the doctor’s office right away. He was so brave at the appointment and insisted on sitting up.
His fever was 102.9 at the office, so they gave him a dose of Motrin. Within the hour I could tell his fever was reducing. He was talkative again and so much less lethargic. They tested him for strep and it was positive. She said it came up positive almost immediately.
So… we are drinking the pink medicine for 10 days, two times a day.
He looks a lot better today, but still has sick eyes.
I am having a slow morning but I have lots of plans of cleaning stuff out today and getting rid of clutter.
I already put my 8 bags of too big clothes in my trunk to take to Goodwill.