Proud of Myself

Well, I sit here on my couch on this Saturday morning after having a glorious 10.5 hours of sleep. Good sleep. Except the 20 minutes in the middle when I had a Charlie Horse.  This week was a perfect recipe for one. It was my first week back to school and it was super hot and we don’t have air conditioning. And I went back to the gym all three scheduled days for two classes per day. And I wore impractical shoes to school because it was too hot to wear socks and tennis shoes. I did drink lots of water but evidently not enough. Anyway, as you just read, I was back to my regular schedule at the gym and it felt great. I did miss Henry an awful lot but I always remind myself that this is for him and well as for myself. It makes me a better person, therefore a better mom. 

Real talk: I had a really rough summer and I gained 12 lbs total. I never gave up on myself and tried to move as much as possible but near the end of summer I was delving deeper and deeper into a depression. I was feeling really awful. I couldn’t cover it up like I had done in the past. So I reached out to my friend who is my doctor and she got me in immediately. She recommended that I definitely get a counselor and started me on Lexapro, an antidepressant. And man alive, after feeling the effects I realize I probably could’ve used this stuff years ago. The difference is huge but subtle. I know that doesn’t make sense but if you’ve taken one, it probably does. It doesn’t get rid of your problems or make you feel perfect but it changes you to feel less hopeless about things. And it is getting me off this couch that I am sitting on right now. 

My group at the gym had a back to basics start up on Monday and we are back to our support group meetings and I love that. I’ve continued to weigh in most of the last month but they were always gains. I am hoping this Monday I am back to losing. 

I have a lot to do at school but it’s just so damn hot. I will get in a groove in the next few weeks when it cools down but for now I am just surviving. 

Henry is finally starting to say lots of words and lots of jumble and it’s awesome. He is so hilarious and always trying to make us laugh. I love him so much. 

It’s a lot harder to get pictures of him at this stage! As you can see some of them are blurry. 
Hope everybody has a great weekend and I’ll be back to posting my weigh ins on Monday. Right now my total weight loss is at about 21. It’s disappointing from the 31 I was at but this shirt I bought from Walmart for 7 bucks is a good reminder to myself and sums up my philosophy of this journey. 


“Give up on giving up!”

Have a great weekend. 

Xoxoox

Beth WA

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Last Lazy Morning

Welp, the time has come. Another school year is beginning. I have open house tonight, meetings tomorrow and Friday, and then Monday is my first day with the kids. I have switched to teaching all religion all day and I am excited and nervous. I want to make it a really great experience for kids but I have a lot to learn. I am happy to leave the stress of teaching math for a while because it stresses me out and to be honest, I am not that good at it. 

So, today is the last slow morning of the summer for Henry and myself.  We are both going to miss it as we are both slow starters! 


Yesterday we went to my BFF, Liz’s house. She recently lost a lot of weight and was giving me some of her old clothes (that I begged her for!). Last night I tried them all on and I am so happy to have some new back to school clothes. There were cute dresses in there, too. These were two of my favorites. 


On the way down to Liz’s we stopped at McDonalds for lunch. I got a Southwest salad, and Henry got a happy meal. He got a pedometer watch and he loves to wear it and I just think it’s the cutest thing to see a two year old with a watch on. 


Then we got home and Henry “drove” his jeep that he got from his grandparents for his birthday. He now has the hang of holding his foot on the gas, just not steering. So, I was a sweaty mess following him around. 

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And then this happened….

In case you are wondering how he got in there, he ran right over everything you see behind him. Luckily the flowers were resilient. 

It was hilarious. I couldn’t stop laughing. He said “Tadaaaa…”

Have a great day, y’all! 

Xoxoxox,

Beth WA

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Do my best.ย 

Today I am committed to doing my best for today. It’s so weird the subtle changes in my body from not working out regularly. I cleaned the house as I mentioned yesterday and today my ankles and back are killing me! This was not the case the last few months. My joint pain was practically gone. Instead of feeling bad about this I am just going to use it as motivation. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป

I have a doctor’s appointment today and I have to get some blood work done for the dermatologist. Other than that Henry and I will be hanging out, and I will be trying to do work. ๐Ÿ˜•

Happy Monday, friends!! 
Xoxoxo,

Beth WA

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Perseveranceย 

Well, I’ve been going through a bit of a rough patch with life in general and starting back to school with a new boss has piled on to the whole thing. But, I am persevering. I may have gained 8 lbs back but I am not quitting. I am doing my best each day trying to figure out how to make it through this time.  My schedule is wonky so I’ve decided I need to go week by week and figure out what workouts I am going to do – whether at the gym or at home. I know I won’t be able to go to the gym as much as I did last year but I can’t use that as an excuse not to work out. I mean, I have every workout DVD that ever was. 

My group at the gym is having a renewal of sorts on August 22nd but I can’t wait that long to be back on plan! I could gain another 5 lbs easily!!!! So this week I am going to try to stay in calories and get at least 3-4 workouts in. I start back to work officially this week and on Monday is my first day with kids! 

This past Friday we had a farewell bbq at my parents for my brother and his family. They went back to Houston on Saturday morning. We are going to miss them like crazy. They were excited because they were going back to their new house! 

This Saturday we went to this Food Truck event the local Rotary puts on in a park about .75 miles from our house. Here is Henry looking cool at the event. 


Today Craig took Henry to his parents house and I spent 6 hours cleaning out Henry’s toys, hanging a few pictures, scrubbing the tub and cleaning the kitchen. There is so much more to do but that’s what I got done today. I threw away three giant bags of garbage and I was pretty thrilled with that. 

I hope everybody has a good Monday!! โค๏ธ

Xoxox,

Beth WA

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+3 lbs this week, -24.8 total

Well, obviously this isn’t great but it was way better than I thought it would be. The good news is I was completely on track yesterday. And I am feeling motivated to continue that streak. But, one day at a time for now as I climb back on the wagon! 

Yesterday my husband truly supported me. He was out running errands and I asked him to pick up lunch for me. He knew I was back on the wagon and yet he didn’t ask me what I wanted for lunch. I was so hungry if he had asked me I would’ve told him a burger and fries. But, he brought me home my favorite salad from Wendy’s. He said he was on his way to get me a whopper and changed his mind. That is support. And I was so grateful. Because it tasted delicious. 

Then I went to the gym for two hours and he stayed home and made dinner. He grilled steak and vegetables and made baked potatoes. It was the perfect meal. That is support. 

It was a good first day home after vacation. The next two weeks will be filled with home organization and school preparation. I am ready and excited. 

Have a good day! 

Xoxox,

Beth WA

PS. My silly goose. 

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Climbing back on the Wagon

We got back from our family vacation last night at 9:00 after being on the road for 12 hours. With a 2 year old. He did really well, considering his age, and lack of love for the car. He really wasn’t too bad until the last hour and forty five minutes. He just wanted to get up. It was really nice, we had my 19 year old niece, Alissa, riding with us. She sat in the back with him and was really attentive to his needs. As soon as we got home Henry ran like crazy around our back yard. 

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We had a really fun time on vacation at the Isle of Palms in South Carolina with Craig’s family. Henry went to the ocean for the first time, but only for a short time as he got his first bee sting! He recovered like a champ, though. We had lots of delicious food (too much), and if I had to guess I probably gained another 5 lbs these last two weeks in addition to the 4.8 I gained for my last weigh in. I am obviously not thrilled with it but I have to move forward. I have to acknowledge the hiccup and this school year I have to plan what I am going to do during the summer next year to make it possible to go to the gym, perhaps put a regular babysitter in the budget. Also, I have to do the same with the school year if my dad gets a job, as he is my sitter. I don’t know the solution, but I have to figure something out. I wish my gym has child care. That would be awesome. Or maybe I can work with a trainer for a little while to learn some workouts then just go to the gym and do my own workouts when Craig gets home from work.  Anyway, I am brainstorming/rambling. 

Craig is off today so I am planning to go to the gym for my two classes and weigh in. ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

Here are some pictures from our vacation.



Well, I am looking forward to having a healthy day.  I need lots of water! Lots and lots! I am so swollen from all of the salt and sitting in a car all day yesterday. My goal for myself is to have consistent losses for the rest of the year. No gains. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป

I would also like to work on reducing my carb intake. But that is a work in progress.  For now, I just need to get through today. ๐Ÿ˜ฝ
I hope you all had a great summer!!

Xoxox,

Beth wa 

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Sunday 5K

I am just dropping in to say I am proud of myself because I …

1. Got new clothes for school/summer/vacation and they were either paid for by gift card or cash. 

2. I stayed in my calories yesterday and am on track to do so for today. 

3. I just did a 5k on the treadmill at the gym on a SUNDAY! I was almost not going to do it because I forgot my headphones. But I turned on close captioning on the tv on the treadmill, and found a criminal minds episode that I had not seen. Miracle! 


I feel good today. 

Can’t wait to get all packed up for vacation!! Woohoo!!
Xoxoxo

Beth WA

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