Finding my joy.

This summer has been a journey in finding my joy again.
Infertility was winning and my spirit was being crushed.
Little by little.
Day by day.
I was losing hope by the hour.

Then, an angel reached out to me and changed the course of my journey.

My angel was Beth FS’s lovely mother. Beth FS’s mom is a kind, generous, caring woman. I’ve always known this about her. She goes out of her way to help people, and is always there to offer a reassuring word or gesture.
She reached out to me to see if I would like to try acupuncture. She had been going for a while, and had a very good friend who was an acupuncturist who had shared her successes with infertility.

Mrs. F’s acupuncturist was going to be out of town, so she referred us to another acupuncturist who she had heard great things about. Not only did Mrs. F schedule my first appointment, she came with me, and was by my side for the consultation, and waited outside the door while I was getting my treatment. When I was finished with my treatment, I asked the acupuncturist how much I owed for the appointment. And she said that Mrs. F had not only paid for that treatment, but for my first several treatments!
I bawled. Like a baby.
I am tearing up just writing about it now.

I was so overcome with gratitude in that moment.

The gratitude that I felt that day has only increased exponentially. First, I love my acupuncturist, Angie. Second, I love the way acupuncture makes me feel. That cycle was the first time in this whole infertility journey that I wasn’t lethargic and depressed during my two week wait. In fact, I have started exercising again, and I’ve been using My Fitness Pal for a few weeks, very successfully.
One day, I realized I wasn’t feeling anxious and depressed any more.
And the only thing I did differently was acupuncture.

I am so grateful to feel myself again. I feel like being social. I feel like doing stuff around the house.
And…I feel like blogging again.

Thank you, Mrs. F, for helping me find my joy.

xoxox,
Beth WA

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8 Responses to Finding my joy.

  1. Beth A's Mom says:

    Yes, thankyou Mrs. F

  2. Asha Padamadan says:

    Wow. I am tearing up. Mrs. F, truly and angel!

  3. P.J. says:

    that’s awesome Beth! Kuddos to Mrs. F – what a wonderful gift!

    Accupuncture has always been intriguing to me. I’d be interested in talking to you more about this when you have time. Do you notice an immediate difference as it’s happening or is it something that you experience/realize after the fact?

  4. Elastamom says:

    No wonder Beth FS is so awesome….she has a wonderful Mommy! So glad you are feeling better!

  5. Susan says:

    I have to be honest I was reading this while driving today to Toledo. I have missed Beth’s blog and I was so excited to see that she had posted a new one. I was so excited and happy for Beth and thankful for such thoughtful people like Beth F’s mom. I started crying for Beth which isnt safe while driving and reading my phone. I know how it feels to not being living in your own skin and I’m so excited that you got your groove back. I think of you often and I wish you and Craig all the happiness in the world. I hope this works for you and if it doesn’t I’m glad it has made you feel good again. Xoxo

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